When it’s quiet enough…

When it’s quiet enough, I can hear it clear
All the things I dodge in a louder year
All the wins I chased just to feel ahead
Left a couple truths I never said

I keep my circle small, my posture tall
Answer every text, never miss a call
But somewhere in the climb and the careful talk
I been scared to let the silence talk

Not weak.
Not lost.

Just tired of what it costs
When the image polished gloss
Start feelin’ like a cross

I don’t tell nobody this
How the calm feel counterfeit
How I built a life that fit
But I don’t always live in it

When it’s quiet enough
I admit I’m afraid
Not of losin’ the run
But of feelin’ the weight

When it’s quiet enough
I don’t know who I am
If I’m more than the plan
Or just holdin’ it up

When it’s quiet enough

Used to think if I kept control
I could keep my center whole
But control can start to fold
When it turn into a role

I don’t cry, I don’t crash
I just tuck it in the back
Keep it movin’, keep it fast
Like the moment gonna pass

Still show up.
Still lead.

Still give ‘em what they need
But what about what I need?
When the lights cut and it’s just me

I don’t post this side of me
It don’t fit the symmetry
Of the version they believe
Or the version I let ‘em see

When it’s quiet enough
I admit I’m unsure
If the peace I pursue
Is a mask or a cure

When it’s quiet enough
I don’t run from the truth
I just sit in the room
And let it move

When it’s quiet enough

Maybe strength ain’t loud at all
Maybe strength is when you fall
Into questions you avoid
And don’t rush to build a wall

Maybe peace don’t mean escape
Maybe peace mean stayin’ late
With the parts you wanna shake
Until they integrate

When it’s quiet enough
I don’t hide from the doubt
I just hold it and count
What it’s tryin’ to show

When it’s quiet enough
I remember I’m more
Than the grind and the score
I just forget it sometimes

When it’s quiet enough

When it’s quiet enough…
I’m still here.