Sometimes I wonder
Who I’d be if I turned left

I see him sometimes when I’m half asleep
Different house, different keys
Same face but the edges clean
Like he learned what to say when it mattered to speak
I don’t envy him, I just notice
The way his shoulders don’t tense when the phone rings
I tell myself I’d do it all again
But some nights that feels like coping

Every road looks honest
Until you live it

I’m not haunted
I’m just aware
Of the version of me
That never stood here
He didn’t fail
He didn’t win
He just went another way
I don’t regret this life I’m in
I just feel the weight
Of the version I didn’t choose

I made decisions with the best intent
Still lost a few things I never meant
To let go of, to outgrow
Turns out timing’s a skill I never learned
Love asks questions I answered late
Faith asked patience, I rushed the wait
I don’t replay to rewrite the past
I replay to understand

Some doors don’t slam
They just stay closed

I’m not haunted
I’m just aware
Of the version of me
That never stood here
He didn’t fail
He didn’t win
He just went another way
I don’t regret this life I’m in
I just feel the weight
Of the version I didn’t choose

Maybe wisdom’s knowing
You can’t live every life
Maybe peace is learning
To stop asking “what if” at night

I’m not haunted
I’m still here
Still holding the cost
Of the choices I made
I don’t need a better ending
I just need to say
I see you now
Yeah, I feel the weight
Of the version I didn’t choose

I see you
I kept walking